My 31 Day “Fail”

grace

I have a 6 month old who doesn’t like to sleep. Which means on most days I’m lucky to take a shower and brush my teeth on the same day. So, it’s really no surprise that I’ve had trouble finding an hour or two to sit down, think through a story and write out a post.

I think I knew this was going to happen, but I had been desiring to write so much that I thought this might keep me motivated. Instead, it made me feel guilty. Every day I didn’t sit down to write, I would beat myself up and believe the lie that I was failing at life and I’d never be able to get back to doing what I loved (yes, a little over-dramatic…a by-product of sleep deprivation). And then this morning I was on a walk, trying to bounce Naomi to sleep, when I realized that I was living my significant story.

In this season of being a new mom, it’s hard to do anything consistently other than to love the child that God has given me. And that’s a good thing. It’s also a hard thing. But it’s what God has called me to do at this point in time. I can still write, I can still do things I’m passionate about, but my children are my first calling. I can find freedom in living out the role that God has given me, rather than feeling bogged down with all the things I think I should be doing. Let’s face it, I’m no super-mom. And that’s ok.

So yes, I did overcommit myself, but I don’t need to continually beat myself up over the fact. I want to be able to give myself grace as I navigate this new season of life I’m in. But doesn’t it always seem that the hardest person to extend grace to is yourself?

Are there areas in life where you are feeling unnecessary guilt? I want to encourage you, as I remind myself, to give yourself grace and seek out what it is that God is really asking of you, rather than piling on more weight.

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  1. Needed to read these words this morning as my inbox overflows and my to-do list continues to grow… While I can barely manage to drink my much-needed coffee because of diaper changes and feedings this morning. The house is a mess. The laundry overflows. The dishes sit waiting for someone to clean them. But, grace. In this season, I am gulping down grace. Loving my babies well. And soaking in grace for all the rest. Thank you, friend. XO!!!

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