one step closer and it’s gotten easier

a-thousand-years

The past few days the song “A Thousand Years” has been on repeat in my head. If you’re not familiar with the song, listen to it here (or just think back to the Twilight theme song).

I have died every day waiting for you
Darling, don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more

One step closer

We finally received a document that we have been waiting on for close to 8 months this week. A piece of paper that will provisionally (love legal jargon) allow our daughters to enter the United States with orphan visas. I could go on and on about what that means and how that plays out for us and what the timeline might be, but I won’t because it’s exhausting and it hurts my head to talk about it.

As Jason and I talked more about the implications of that little piece of paper, we had a resurgence of hope. We have been waiting to bring Moriah and Glory into our homes for 17 months. In our culture it’s hard to wait even a week to see a turn around, yet God has seen it fit for our family to be on the long journey with no end it sight. Every day God brings us one step closer to having our family under one roof and every day He gives us just enough strength and grace to live with half our heart across the ocean.

And honestly, in many ways the wait has gotten easier.

I often get the comment “I don’t know how you’ve been able to wait this long.” And most of the time I don’t know how we’ve been able to do it either.  I do know that we’ve learned to cope with the truth that this process has taken much longer than first anticipated.

We don’t talk about it all the time and our friends don’t ask us about the process as much. I’m glad they don’t and I think they know that if I want to talk about it, I will bring it up. I have learned the best way to walk through this is to keep on living. Jason and I want to leave a legacy to our children to enjoy and embrace the life God has given you, no matter where that journey takes you. And through this extended wait I feel that God is teaching us all the ways we can pass that legacy on to our children.

Now don’t get me wrong, I still think there is a WHOLE bunch of injustice going on with the extension of this wait. There are children dying and childhoods being lost and families who ache to children laughing in their home in the midst of this suspension and I wish I knew why. I don’t have the answers for how this all fits in under God’s will and His plan. I do know that He is a God of justice and He will right every wrong.

As my mom said to me yesterday, soon this wait will be only a distant memory and our house will buzz with the squeals of laugher from our three little girls. So for today I will cuddle little Naomi and pray that God would work out all of this for His glory.

As for now we will rejoice that we are one step closer to this portion of our family’s story coming to a conclusion.

Comments

  1. Beautiful! Love you and your family and what God is doing

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