Blessings amidst Trial

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In September when I went to the Influence Conference I met a young woman at the She Reads Truth devotional time early Friday morning who has blessed my life in a way I never would have imagined.

I had just finished my morning workout and had rushed over to the optional meet up of the She Reads Truth ladies. I felt a too grimy and in no real mood to talk about my journey or the topic of grace which we were discussing, but God knew I needed to be there.

As the ladies were discussing the amazing gift of grace and the trouble we as women have receiving and extending grace, I was slowly being convicted that my heart was too hard. When we gathered in smaller groups to pray, I happened to be in the same group as Teressa Mackey. I remember her asking, “Instead of us being general about our prayers, I’d love to know how to pray for each of you specifically.”

“Oh boy,” I thought, “I don’t think I can fully share my need for and thoughts on grace right now.” I don’t remember what I ended up sharing exactly, but I know that I mentioned something about being 11 weeks pregnant and feeling like I wasn’t enough. After prayer time, the ladies asked how I was feeling and other baby questions. At that time I opened up and shared the full story of our growing family through adoption and how this little peanut growing in me was quite a shock. I noticed that Teressa was taking in my story with wide, tearful eyes. What I didn’t know was that God had pricked her heart towards us.

That evening Teressa and I made plans to workout in the morning together, but we also caveated it based on our exhaustion levels (we all stayed up way too late every night…talking, like girls do!) I ended up making it to the hotel gym, but didn’t see her, so I did my workout and left. Little did I know that she arrived at the gym about 5 minutes after I left and did a short, quick run.

At breakfast, she told me that as she was running she spent the whole time praying for our adoption and family. She also said she was really interested in hearing about our fundraising needs and goals. I was moved. Although we had just met less than 24 hours ago, we had made a connection and God had started a friendship between us that He would use in a way that would bless my family immensely.

Most of you know that our adoption story has not played out how we thought it would. It is taking longer with more hurdles than we could have ever anticipated. (If you’re interested in knowing what some of those hurdles are, here is an article that our agency wrote in regards to what is happening in G + M’s home country.)

Currently we are waiting for a correction to be made on a document that is pivotal towards moving forward in our adoption process. The correction will be made and things will move forward but it’s definitely not moving in the speed that this type A personality would prefer (but 8 weeks is a little long to make a spelling or address correction right?!?!).

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All of this heartache and unknown has left me pretty raw with emotions and sprinkle that with pregnancy hormones…most days I feel downright crazy. That is until I remember people like Teressa who have come alongside of us, not because we’ve asked or because we are all that awesome, but because God has moved in their hearts and has given them a desire to care for orphans in need. In those moments I am reminded that God is bigger than my fears and He is using this extra time of waiting to pour out His blessings on our family and to increase our faith.

This morning I read Charles Spurgeon’s “Morning & Evening” devotional and was struck by how timely it was for Jason and I. I won’t share it all here, but if you want to read it, here is the link.

Faith untried may be true faith, but it is sure to be little faith, and it is likely to remain dwarfish so long as it is without trials. Faith never prospers so well as when all things are against her: tempests are her trainers, and lightnings are her illuminators.

It’s been through this trial that God has given us so many other blessings that we would never have been able to experience. And meeting Teressa was one of those blessings.

Yesterday Teressa shared on her blog that she is running a half marathon next month. This half marathon will be run not just for her own personal achievement, but for adoption and specifically for our adoption! Her goal is to raise $40/mile! Never, ever would I have thought that a woman that I met over a 3 day conference would want to raise over $500 for our adoption by running a half marathon. God does do immeasurably more than we could ask or imagine!

For those of you in the midst of a trial, have hope! God is with you and He will give you blessings in ways you never thought possible. Keep holding on to hope!

{if you’re interested in giving towards her race in honor of G + M, here is the youcaring link:}



  1. You are a beautiful writer friend. God is doing big things!

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